xdirtx

siandien man kelia nuotaika

Pecka.

TV:
1. Putino portretas visu ugiu seksualioj pozoj ant sofos rimto i kamera snekancio politiko uznugaryje.
2. "rusu laikrasciai parase, kad lietuvoje buvo isrinktas senukas..."
3. Klaipedoj besipizdine futbolo fanai.
[kartais biskis tv - visai nieko TM]

laikrastis ("alio reklama"), pirmas puslapis:
"nebrangiai gaminame ES veliavas..."

tevas:
vel atveze maike su Che Guevaros morda

Andriaus naujas e-mailas.

:)))

uz 2ju valandu futbolas!!!

uz 14 valandu - nindzes dvieju pastaruju bloginimu ir komentu skaitymas + rasymas!!!

ole! gyvenimas puikus!

+ Grino atsiustas piesinukas:

zimbabwe [vno], evilsons [fin], plague mass [aus] kns-Galera [2004.07.06]

ar grazu? :)

belorussia::minsk::june::2004

ENG
belorussia::minsk::june::2004
In 2004 June I've made visa for going to belorussia for 20 euros and went to Minsk with Bora [www.bora.hardcore.lt] to see local show. Bora should play in Grodno too, but few days before the gig it occuried that local authorities closed the place and banned the upcoming event. as local activist dRAGGa [dragga@375crew.org] told me "alternative" clubs are running for one year in belorussia as max., because as he said "we live even in more "free" country than you do, god dem it". we've made the part from Vilnius to border quit fast, but then we've spent more than 3 hours waiting for nothing on the border. one of border officers didn't want to believe that PA system can cost so little (actually it didn't, because it is always helpfull to cut real prices of things you have when you go through customs). each of one was forced to show passport, visa, stand in front of a little window, so they could check your ID in they almighty computers, fill two forms claiming that we're not carrying weapons of mass destruction and so on. the driver had even more mess because of driver's licence, insurence, etc. when we finally got in belorussia, I fallen asleep. I woke up near Minsk city. Minsk appeared to be much like Warsaw, maybe there were more free space than in Warsaw. the city is planned, no oldtown there (it was bombed by nazis in II world war), but it is still quit nice in the downtown, because of hundreds torches of different colors everywhere. also, I've noticed 4 McDollar's while we went through the biggest street of Minsk. it was able to fit in even in so called by mass-media "socialism reservation". there is some truth in such tellings, because for instance the attribution of soviet time is partly kept alive there, even in the new buildings you can feel some presence of it, all political "nomenclature" goes skiing when president wants them to, etc. and from the inside the simple and ugly capitalism is taking everything over. just whatever president would announce like "our own way", he is not able to "not allow in" capitalism in his country. it all reminds Fidel's Castro yearly waving of guns in US direction. the only difference is that in cuba it all became a spectacle for long while (even US FBI are not trying to take out Castro anymore - he'll die soon himself and everything will "ok" there), and it is not so simple about belorussia - a "world society" is still afraid a little of "lukashenko land". on the other hand Lukashenko, while being not able to eat big fishes, eats russian NTV journalists, political oponents, who exist by west grants (and who are not truly causing any big problems, because most of they activities is considered about getting more grants (10.000 USD received - 2 demonstrations arranged - this is the way it works. it is work "for future" to create some "moral background" for upcoming EU restrictions to belorussia or maybe even US bombings, if "the mad king George" or any other politician will still run that country.) and at last Lukashenko also eats punk/hardcore scene activists, who besides had received two grants too - the local semi-anarchist, semi-bullshit newspaper called "Navinki" ("little news") did so. as one of the ex-correspondents of that paper said, one of the grants they used to release more numbers of that paper, then it became quit popular, so authorities banned newspaper and closed it's head-squatters. after that the other grant was just drunk out by newspaper workers. as the same correspondent said (while being sXe) - it was better than fake demonstrations, people had fun at last. in Minsk sometimes I felt being in "goodbye lenin!" film - when seeing monument for second world war veterans with soviet blazon in front of McDollar's or huge Coca-Cola banner on soviet type eating-house. people there seemed to be more "open and warm" than at home.
at last we got to NC club., the place of a show. the place was quit nice. a little room + WC on the first flour and a big hall, scene, dj and bar on second flour. club was buil-up quit interesting - with some metal things, pipes, submarine attributes . then we saw show poster - Bora and two more bands. Bora were called "vilnius metal hardcore heroes". we laught that belorussian are used to call everyone a "hero". Toro Bravo [www.hardcore.lt/torobravo]- antifa oi! heroes, Dr.Green [www.hardcore.lt/drgreen] - ska/punk heroes, even Splitface [www.splitface.hardcore.lt] in one local zine were described as "upcoming lithuanian scene heroes". while filling in equipment, we got to know that actually 4 more bands are going to play tonight. they were not mentioned on poster, because they had some fights with nazis, so everybody hold hope that nazis won't come if they are not mentioned. besides, most of such kind of shows are often attacked by nazis or/and cops/OMON/KGB - Toro Bravo show was cancelled, because of that (most of you probably had already heard of Ciubas adventures in Minsk), also Hero Dishonest [www.ifsociety.com/herodishonest] show and many other shows - the typical example would be anarcho-ecological "Zelionyj Shabash" ("Green Sabbat") fest - during the even OMON came and said they got message about a bomb in the place (nazis made that call), they took everyone out, and there some smoke grenades are thrown already, when people are running from cops through smoke, they face about 30 nazis with sticks and chains ready to beat them up. after that even everybody are openly speaking about cooperation of cops, OMON and "patriotical youth". poster said the show should start at 17.00, and it started at 18.00. first were Devil Shoot Devil [fdc@hardcore.lt] from Minsk with our buddy Danik on one vocal + girl on other vocal + two guitars + many melodies + simple, but sincere spoken words before songs - really good! on truth. it was nice, true and important. they played middle tempo melodic punk/hardcore with shouting/talking male vocal and singing/talking female one. lyrics - mass media, veganism, scene posers, straightedge, system, anarchism - it seems like "standart" issues, but it all was true, important and real on sure. besides, in our scene (nevermind, later about our scene). then second were locals Pull Out An Eye (ex-Rescue 811[http://rescue811.375crew.org]) - two male vocals (one was truly unreal - if you take fly buzzing and take it trough amplifier and get it all on high intense and sound level) fast, trashy hardcore, would be good mates to Hero Dishonest, Betercore [www.betercore.tk]. lyrics deals with state, borders, unity, friendship. third were Sandinista from Sankt-Petersburg (russia) - sound and vocal were "meat-like", hard, good metal sounds mixed with political/personal lyrics about "how we should made a good proportion between work and our lifes, goods and our lifes, power and our lifes". Egor and Julia making good russian zine "Voice" [http://voicehardcore.by.ru] are members of that band. guitarist had some problems with tuning his gun, but I still like them very much. it felt like Heaven Shall Burn[www.heavenshallburn.com]. the 4 band climbing on the scene were local Puls Vokrug ("puls around") - they played as local called it "mazafaka/rap with guitar". all was done right. maybe even too much right. lyrics about not so political, more personal, more 'easy' tahn others, but there's song against police brutality, also one of songs was written by Danik dealing with scene problems. they got biggest audience dancing (at all there were more than 200 people, half from punk/hc scene and different "alternative" youth), so Marka persuaded me to jump to the crowd when the "jump-da-fuck" moment will be there - we jumped, Marka of course was carried carefully, and I of course wasn't - hand hurted for all evening. fifth band were xJiHeartx. they played fucking great. hardcore with few slow comedowns and a bit of crust. Dasha's vocal sometimes reminds of some arias. spoken words were great too. she was all thrilling while speaking, you knew it is important and true. she said that maybe we'll meet american soldiers here, in belorussia, too, when Bush will take belorussia to "black list", she talked about how G8 in imhumanic way controls level of birthrate in "third world countries", about despair torching her from inside when she sees people so unwilling to take their lifes back, about "long forgotten revolution", and so on. it was amazing. sixth Bora came to play. I was left near distro, and I was watching it all from behind. Bora started to play, and the pogo began immediately. (belorussian opposite to us know how to dance, and they fucking dance!, belorussian opposite to our scene are more unite, belorussians opposite to us have less badges, but do more things, belorussians opposite to us are many sXe (!), belorussians opposite to us have few antifa crews (!) - RASH, SHARP and antifa hools. I mean of course I would mention some minuses and "bad stuff" considering this scene, after I would spent there more time, but as for first look I am mentioning how it is different from our one. Bora sounded beter thatn in Green Club, maybe they finally got it all together on the new equipment. Vladas was shouting loud and hard, but between songs I couldn't figure out even a title of a song... they played two songs, during third one sound operator turned off lights, two security men got on the scene, few locals came to me and said "hide distro! hide distro! because it will be confiscated!". so I did. it all happened because:
outside, near the entrance to club a car had arrived. few men in black came out and let out two nazis, who came near by and take up their right hand by nazi-greeting. so they got beated up by locals really fast. then men in black took one guy, who had hit nazis first and started to take him into the car. when other people surrounded them demanding to show documents, they showed guns. they got that guy into the car and tried to leave, but people blocked the car and called the police. when cops arrived, they talked to these men in black and they appeared to be KGBists.
everybody were taken out, only musicians left, quickly carrying equipment to their vans. organizers started to think where show should continue. nobody doubt that it need to be continued. there was even idea of a little open air with electro-power-generator, but finally it was decided to rent one apartament of local mates for 50 USD per night. we left to the place, taking drums by the way. then we got call from people who went to the centre of the city, they said that near by 20 nazis with sticks and chains wait for them, but when they saw about 150 people coming, they run out. the person calling, said that part of them is moving to the centre to fight nazis there. when we got to the place, it was two flour quit expensive building with porch, and bad electrical engineering in kitchen (if you had no boots, when trying to touch something, you always got little, but not so pleasant hit of electro-wave) . also even frontline and mixer was there. so it was really quit nice. the place used to be the point of acid-narco-gay parties. soon some people from centre came. they told that there was the biggest fight of the last year in the centre. it last about 15 minutes. 30 nazis+cops from one side and 50 punk/hc activists from another. local cafe street tables flew from one side to another and so on. he said that at last 3 punk/hc guys had been arrested (one of them was a bass-player of a band, that should play the last after Bora, so they didn't), few more last time were seen standing on the knees in front of OMON forces, and guy telling all this stuff said he was nearly to be caught too, but he used his tear gas spray to one of the OMONovists. he also told taht cops only pushed to sides and didn't arrest any of "patriotical youth". in the end of the fight there were about 15-20 nazis left, and they hide behind the cops, and didn't cause any problem. about 50 people came to place to continue show (half from club, half from centre after fight). Bora tuned up and started to play. they played quit nice, but sound wasn't so good. it was more after party/after fight show, so most of the people just set and watched them playing. but about 20 of them still managed to make circle pits in 2x2 place, to sinalong cover of Coalition, to take up Vladick and Krilaz [KABLYS@hardcore.lt] and create a really good atmosphere. after the show there was a tasty meal and sleepless night, because of communication, loud music, etc. Sergey Voloshin, from Moscow d.i.y. label Old School Kids [http://oskids.nm.ru] also was there and made few photos: http://photofile.ru/default/do?sp=&sn=&id=2005899&np=
http://photofile.ru/default/do?sp=124679&sn=&id=2006887&np=
I find most fun of them to be emo-photos of Vladick and interesting photos of locals.
+ if you're interested, I can somehow copy you more photos + Contra la Contra [http://contra-la-contra.by.ru::www.no-pasaran.org] video from belorussian scene. it all is about 100 MB.
during show in belorussia there were many people from abroad, who I communicate with, do things with, etc. - egor and Julia from russian "Voice" zine, Olia from Sankt-Petersburg [phdpunk@pisem.net], who published russian version of "Punk philosophy", Nastia from Sankt-Petersburg, Sergey from Moscow, Old Shcool Kids, Dima [rebel23@rambler.ru] from Novvopolock, all the great people from belorussia, so that gig became to me some kind of big "live" meeting + d.i.y. conference (what's up? how are you? how it is there? and how it is here?). next day we went to Dasha's place to take some food. after that poignant/emotional goodbye with tears and hopes and travell back home. Daliakas got a bit drunk, so he didn't shut up for whole way back, even on the customs he called one officer Piggy, but for hell sake, he didn't notice it. near Vilnius we stopped to go to swim in some lake. I didn't (after this all who had swimmed got ill). and then we came home.
all that day's evening I was thinking about time, we spent in belorussia. about their unity, their political active scene. about their openminded way of being, goodbye tears. about that they while being oppressed by lukashenko, nazis and state on on hand and capitalism, nazis and McDollar's on the other, still manage to resist, manage to create, be together. such things are giving passion to to something, to act, to live, to delete everything from hard disc that is less positive than old school hardcore. to read about RAF. to remember about 68. to think about society of spectacle. that I want to go there one more time, to hold their hands, to shout and cry together.
xdirtx::L.i.L.o. collective
more on belorussian scene activity can be found there: www.375crew.org
[russian language, but soon they will have english version too]

upcoming events in belorussia:

19 July:
Plague Mass [aus] + Hero Dishonest [fin] Minsk

15-21 July:

girls from
-"Rebellious girls",
-women crisis centre,
-and organisation "Jana".
invite you to take part in the women summer camp!!

Data: about 15-21 July

Place for camp: Belarus open air

Objects of camp: for us important meet with activists from other
countries for experience exchange and possibility of common
projects\contacts. And we never had camp with women\feministic\gender
tematics.
Also energization belarusian women activists.

Number of participants about 70.
Living in tent camp, food from camp-fire, natural lavatory.

Now we have financional limit. But we promise food in camp and travel from
Minsk to camp, but we cann't promise reimbursement of travel cost :(( But
we try to find it, you can try too!!!

Structure of the camp:
In the evening - cultural program
Cinema/video
Disco
Concert
Theatre
Fire-show
Body-art
football!!

In the morning\day - some seminars, discussions, workshops
Workshops
Home video/ processes of cinema doing
Self-defense for women
Foto art
Embroidery\knitting
Diy stuffs
djing

Seminars, discussions
Situation in Belarus
Women initiatives in Belarus
Woman statement and women initiatives in different countries
Sex minorities, rights, stereotypes, and statement in Belarus
Women and migration
Traffic
Possibility of common projects
Violence
Feminism
Gender
Reasons for gender inequality
Family. The institute of motherhood and fatherhood. Family roles.
Woman literature
Woman cinema
Alternative pedagogic
Masculinity

Results:
- you have possibility to have new contacts
- rest from men
- relations with super girls!! from Germany, Belarus, Russia,
Latvia and Poland
we are waiting for:
1. Women's collective of satirical feminist journal 'Wargazm' (Belarus;
Minsk) 2. Crisis Centre (Belarus; Minsk)
3. Gender Centre (Russia; St. Petersburg)
4. Internet Radio Project RIXC (Latvia; Riga)
6. Women Lesbian Film Collective (Germany; Berlin)
7. Street Theatre and Acrobatic Group (Germany; Berlin)
8. Pirate Radio
to be continued... (which groups did I forget?)

We have maillist about camp, if it is interesting to take part for you,
subscribe too! and we must know as soon as possible will you in camp or
no,
becouse we must do some organizational stuff. We hope to see you in camp!
we interested in contacts with girls from Poland. You can write on Polish.

Love and anarchy

contact - mailto:nekozak@mail.ru

LT
baltarusija::minskas::birzelis::2004
pasidariau viza pusei metu uz 55 litus (kadangi Shalchininkai yra pasienio zona, tai pigiau) ir isvariau kartu su Bora i Minska, i koncerta. jie dar turejo groti ir Gardine (Grodno), bet likus keliom dienom paaiskejo, kad koncerto nebus, nes valdzia uzdare koncerto vieta. apskritai, kaip man po to sake dRRAGGa, 'alternatyvus' klubai baltarusijoje gyvuoja ne ilgiau kaip metus, kadangi kaip jis issireiske 'musu salis dar laisvesne nei jusu, bliat'. nuo Vilniaus iki sienos nedaug km., tai iveikem labai greitai, o sienoje stovejome daugiau nei tris valandas. vienas pasienietis vis nenorejo tiketi, kad stiprintuvai gali tiek mazai kainuoti. kiekvienam prireike parodyti pasus, vizas, pastoveti pries langeli, uzpildyti po dvi formos kopijas, bisuko savininkui dar daugiau visokiu popieriu. kai pagaliau ivaziavome i baltarusija, as uzmigau. atsibudau jau palyginus netoli Minsko. Minskas man pasirode panasus i Varsuva, bet daug erdvesnis. miestas isplanuotas, senasmiesciu nelabai kvepia, bet uztat centre vakare labai grazu del tukstanciu lempuciu visokiu spalvu ir atspalviu. o taip pat, vaziuodamas pagrindiniu prospektu, priskaiciavau 4 McDonaldus. sugebejo mat isispaust net i massmedia'u pravardziuojama 'socializmo draustini'. dalis tiesios tame yra, nes visa tarkim ano meto atributika yra daug maz issaugota, net modernus pastatai vis tiek statyti pagal sovietu standarta, visa politiku 'nomenklatura' varo ant slydziu su prezidentu, kai jis tik to uzsigeidzia, etc. o is vidaus visur ir visaip yra kapitalizmas, paprastas ir negrazus. tiesiog kad ir koki prezidentas skelbtu 'savo kelia', jis nesugeba 'neileisti' kapitalizmo pas save i sali. visa tai primena Fidelio Kastro vis dar rengiamus mojavimus sautuvais i JAV puse. tik jei kuboje tai jau labiau primena spektakli (net JAV spec. tarnybos jau nerengia pasikesinimu i Fidelio gyvybe - greit pats pasimirs, ir viskas bus 'ok'), tai apie baltarusija pasaulio visuomene to dar negali pasakyt, nes ji dar biski prisibijo 'lukasenkijos'. o Lukasenka savo ruoztu, nesugeba valgyt didesniu zuvu, todel valgo rusu NTV zurnalistus, opozicijos ant Vakaru grantu 'sedincius' 'nepriklausomus' politikus (kurie is tikruju nekelia didesnio pavojaus rezimui, nes didzioji ju veiklos dalis yra nukreipta i grantu pateisinima (gauta 10.000 USD - atlikta dvi demonstracijos) ir nauju grantu isspaudima) ir pagaliau punk/hardcore scenos zmones, kurie karta irgi pasinaudojo Vakaru fondu grantais (pvz. taip dare pusiau anarchistiskas, pusiau raspizdiajiskas laikrastis "Navinki"). kaip sake vienas is buvusiu laikrascio korespondentu, jie gavo du grantus, viena idejo i laikrasti, tada laikrasti uzdare valdzia, nes laikrastis tapo pakankamai populiarus, tai kita granta jie tesiog pragere. kaip sake tas pats korespondentas (o taip pat ir straitedzas), tai geriau nei vaidmeniskos demonstracijos - pasigere zmones bent normaliai. aplinkui kartais nuotaikos primindavo filma "goodbye lenin!", kai priesais McDonalda stovi antrojo pasaulinio karo veteranu paminklas su sovietu herbu, arba ant sovietinio tipo valgyklos didelis Coca-Cola logo ir t.t. zmones Minske pasirode atviresni ir siltesni, nei cia, pas mumi.
vargais negalais susiradome NC Kluba, koncerto vieta. pati vieta visai nieko. pirmame aukste kambariukas ir tulikai, antrame gana didele sale, scena, dj pultas ir baras. klubas apstatytas/apdarytas gana idomiai - visokiais gelzgaliais, vamzdziais, povandeniniu laivu atributais. primena BIX bara, tik visko kelis kart daugiau - vietos, gelzgaliu, zmoniu. ir jeigu BIX baras nepaliko ispudziu, bent teigiamu, tai NC klubas paliko. pamateme koncerto plakata - Bora ir dar dvi grupes. Bora pavadinti 'vilniaus metalizuoto hardcoro heroes'. juokemes, kad baltarusai visus vadina 'heroes'. Toro Bravo - antifa oi! heroes, Dr.Green - ska/punk heroes, net Splitface vienam zine apibudinti kaip 'busimi hardcoro scenos 'heroes'. iskrauname aparatura, suzinome, kad is tikruju gros dar ne dvi grupes, bet visos sesios, tiesiog jie nebuvo irasyti i plakata, nes spejo pasizymeti kovose su naciais, todel nuspresta, kad koncertas bent jau ivyktu (dauguma tokiu koncertu baltarusijoje yra uzpuolama naciu ar/ir mentu/OMONo/KGB - Toro Bravo koncertas neivyko del siu priezasciu (visi tikriausiai jau zino apie Ciubo zygdarbius Minske), taip pat Hero Dishonest koncertas ir daug kitu koncertu - tipiskas atvejis, kai anarcho-ekologinio festo 'Zelionyj Shabash' ('green sabbat') metu atvaziavo OMONas ir sako, kad gavo pranesima apie pastate padeta bomba (naciai paskambino), isvaro visus i lauka, o lauke numestos dumu saskes, kai zmones bega pro dumus i prieki, jie atsitrenkia i 30 naciu su bitom, grandinem ir t.t.). po sio ivykio abiejose pusese imta atvirai kalbeti apie KGB, mentu ir 'patriotiskojo jaunimo' bendradarbiavima.
plakate koncerto pradzios laikas nurodytas 17.00, koncertas prasidejo 18.00. pirmi grojo Devil Shoot Devil, su musu draugeliu Daniku ant vokalo + mergina ant kito vokalo + dvi gitaros + daug melodiju + paprastos, bet nuosirdzios iskalbos pries dainas - OXUJENNAI! is tikruju. buvo labai grazu, tikra ir svarbu. jie grojo middle tempo melodinga punk/hardcore su rekianciu/kalbanciu vyr.vokalu ir dainuojancu/kalbanciu mot.vokalu. tekstai - apie mass media, veganizma, straighedge, pozerius scenoje, sistema, anarchizma, - atrodytu 'klisinis' rinkinys, bet is tikruju, visa tai buvo labai oxujennai, tikra ir jau sakiau. be to, bent jau musu scenoje (ai, veliau apie musu scena). antri buvo Pull Out An Eye (ex-Rescue 811) - du vyriski vokalai (vienas is viso nerealus - lyg muses zvimbejima praleistu pro stiprintuva ir duotu ant gero garso), greitas trashovas hardcoras, tiktu turuoti su Hero Dishonest, Betercore. tekstai apie valstybe, apie sienas, apie unity, apie draugyste. patiko. treti grojo Sandinista is SanktPeterburgo - garsas ir vokalas alia 'mesa', sunkus, geras metal hardcoras su politiniais/asmeniniais tekstais apie tai 'kaip reikia derinti darba, ir savo gyvenima, neleisti darbui, prekem, daiktam uzgozti veiksmu, jausmu, santykiu, gyvenimo'. grupeje groja Egoras ir Julia is gero rusu Voice zino (i toki zina gali ateity isaugti musiskis Blown Speakers - to jam ir linkiu!). gitaristui vis issiderindavo gitara ir jis del to labai jaudinosi, bet man vis tiek jie labai patiko. pagal nuotaika man primine Heaven Shall Burn. ketvirta grupe Puls Vokrug (Pulsas Aplink) grojo kaip sako vietiniai sako 'mazafaka - rep s gitaroj'. viskas labai techniska, 'kaip reikia' grojo, bet man visiskai nepatiko. tesktai - anglu kalba labiau "paprastesne tematika", ne tokie politiski, bet yra daina pries mantu brutaluma ir vienas tekstas apie scenos problemas (parasytas Daniko), per juos soko daugiausiai iki siol zmoniu (is viso susirinko daugiau nei 200 zmoniu, puse is punk/hc crew ir visokio plauko 'alternativsikai'), tad Marka ikalbejo mane sokti kartu su juo nuo scenos, kai bus 'jump da fuck up!' momentas - sokome, Marka zinoma pagavo, manes zinoma nepagavo - ranka skaudejo visa vakara. penkti i scena ilipo groti xJiHeartx. pagrojo oxujennai. hardcoras su biskuciu letu vietu ir crusto priemaisom. Dashos vokalas truputi primindavo arijas. prakalbos is viso nerealios. ji kalbejo, visa uzsidegusi, matesi, kad tai tikrai svarbu, ir rupi. kalbejo apie tai, kad greitai galbut teks susitikti su amerikieciu kareiviais ir cia, kai tik Busas imes baltarusija i 'juodaji sarasa', apie tai, kaip G8 salys nezmoniskom priemonem reguliuoja gimstamumo lygi 'treciojo pasaulio' salyse, apie tai koks 'despair' drasko ja, kai ji mato zmogelius - robotus, apie 'long forgotten revolution', ir taip toliau. buvo labai zjb. sesti i scena ilipo Bora. man paliko distro, tai stebejau biski atokiau, is tolo. zmoniu prisigrudo labai daug. Bora pradejo groti. is karto prasidejo sokiai/pogo. (baltarusiai skirtingai nuo musu scenos, moka sokti, ivairiai ir smagiai, baltarusiai skirtingai nuo musu scenos yra daug labiau unite, baltarusiai skirtingai nuo musu scenos nesioja daug maziau nasifkiu, uztat padaro daugiau dalyku, baltarusiai skirtingai nuo musu scenos kas trecias yra sXe (!), baltarusiai turi kelis antifa skinhead'u tusus (!) - RASH, SHARP ir antifa hoolls, ta prasme, aisku, isigylinus, jauciu, atsirastu visokiu 'blogybiu' - apie jas ir kalbeta buvo nuo scenos, bet isvardinau pozityvius dalykus, kurie is karto papuole i akis, ir kurie skiriasi nuo musu scenos). Bora skambejo geriau nei Green Klube, gal pagaliau susigrojo ant naujo aparaciaus. Vladas kauke garsiai ir smarkiai, bet dainu pavadinimu atskirti bent jau man nejo. pagrojo du gabalus, per trecia garso operatorius atjunge vokala, ijunge sviesa, ant scenos ilipo du apsauginiai, prie manes pribego keli vietiniai ir pradejo rekti 'slepk distro! slepk distro, nes konfiskuos!'. visa tai ivyko del to, kad:
lauke prie klubo privaziavo masina. is jos islipo keli juodai apsirenge vyriskiai ir isleido du nacius, kurie pradejo kelti rankas nacistiskai besisveikindami. juos is karto sumuse lauke stoveje zmones. tada vyriskiai juodais drabuziais pradejo tempti pirma sudavusi naciams vaikina i masina, kai kiti zmones juos apsupo, reikalaudami parodyti dokumentus, jie parode ginklus. isodine vaikina i masina, jie bande isvaziuoti, bet zmones uzblokavo masina, ir iskviete mentus. atvaziave mentai paskelbe apie koncerto uzdaryma, pasikalbejo su nacius atvezusiais zmonemis, jie pasirodo buvo KGBistai.
visi zmones buvo isprasyti lauk, liko tik muzikantai, mes greitai nesiojome aparaciu i busika. buvo pradeta spresti, kur pratesti koncerta, nes kad pratesimas turi buti niekas neabejojo. buvo svarstytas net nedidelio open airo su generatorium variantas. galiausiai buvo nuspresta parai issinuomot pazistamu tusovsiku kotedza uz 50 doleriu. mes isvaziavome i ta kotedza, pakeliui paeme bugnus. paskambine kiti zmones, kurie nuejo i centra, pranese, kad prie klubo uz kampo ju lauke apie 20 bitom, grandinem, gelzgaliais apsiginklavusiu naciu, kurie pamate minia apie 150 zmoniu, pasitrauke. skambines zmogus pasake, kad zmones patrauke i centra, nes centre tusinasi naciai. kai mes nusigavome iki koncerto pratesimo vietos, pasirode, kad tai buvo dvieju aukstu, su palepe, balkonu, ir blogu elektros 'pratesimu' virtuveje (jei neturejai tapkiu, nemaloniai gaudavai su elektra per pirstus, prie ko beprisiliestum virtuveje) gana prabangus kotedzas, su galingu priekiniu apraciumi, stovinciu tiesiog kambary, pultu, maloniu apsvietimu ir prie lubu besisukanciu sviesa atspindinciu 'sariku'. kotedze gyvena vienas visiskai narko ciuvakas, ten organizuojamos narko 'kislotni' tusai, o taip pat irgi narko geju tusai. greitai atvare keli zmones is centro. papasakojo, kad centre buvo didziausios mustynes per pastaruosius metus, kad truko apie 15 min., is vienos puses apie 30 naciu + mentai, is kitos apie 50 punk/hardcorovcu, pasakojo, kad gatves kaviniu staliukai skraide i abi puses, kad mentai arestavo kaip min. 3 punk/hc atstovus (vienas is ju buvo grupes, kuri turejo groti su Bora kotedze - paskutine, sesta, grupe, bosistas, todel jie negrojo), dar kelis mate stovincius ant keliu pries OMONa, o pasakojes ciuvas giresi, kaip issisuko nuo OMONovco suleides jam i veida duju. dar pasakojo, kad mentai tik nustumdavo i sali 'patriotiskaji jaunima', ir nearestavo ne vieno is ju. mustyniu pabaigoje, naciai praktiskai pasislepe uz mentu, ju liko apie 15-20, ir jie jau niekur nelindo. i kotedza susirinko apie 50 zmoniu (puse likusiu klube, puse atejusiu po mustyniu). Bora susiderino ir pradejo groti. pagrojo visai nieko, nors man garsas pasirode gana prastas. tai buvo toksai labiau after party/after fight koncertas, kuriame dauguma ilsejosi ir klausesi, kaip grojo Bora. bet ir tai, apie 20 zmoniu sugebejo ir iskelti Vlada ant ranku ir Krila, ir padaryti circle pita 2x2 metru vietoje, ir parekti kartu tekstus, ir sukurti labai gera atmosfera. po koncerto seke skanus maistas ir bemiege naktis, del bendravimo, garsios muzikos, ir kt. Sergejus Voloshynas is Old School Kids, is Maskvos irgi buvo cia ir padare kelias nuotraukas, kurias galit pasiziureti cia: http://photofile.ru/default/do?sp=&sn=&id=2005899&np=
http://photofile.ru/default/do?sp=124679&sn=&id=2006887&np=
man labiausiai juokingos buvo vietiniu ir Vlado emo-nuotraukos.
+ jei kazkas man duotu vietos, tai sudeciau ir daugiau nuotrauku is baltarusijos scenos, o taip pat juokinga Contra la Contra klipa. viso reikia apie 100 megu.
per koncerta baltarusijoje buvo daug zmoniu is kitu miestu, su kuriais palaikau rysi, susirasineju, etc. - Egoras ir Julia is Voice zino, Olia, isleidusi 'Panko filosofija', is Piterio, Nastia is Piterio, Sergejus is Old School Kids, Dima iz NovvoPolocko, todel man sis koncertas virto ir pazinciu vakaru (nes ne vieno nemaciau gyvai iki tol) ir mini konferencija (o kaip pas jus? o taip pas mus. o ka daryt? manau, kad stai ka.).
kita diena seke kelione iki maisto Dashos namuose. po to skaudus/jaudinantis atsisveikinimas su asarom ir viltim, ir kelione namo. Isgeres Daliakas pizdelino beveik visa kelia, bande vaidint ir Varvekli, ir kitus musu scenos 'veikejus', ant sienos pavadino pasienieti Porosionku, bet laimei, tas neatkreipe i tai demesio. atgal ivaziuodami sienoje praleidome apie valanda. prie pat Vilniaus sustojome prie ezero pasimaudyti. (visi trys, kas maudesi, veliau susirgo), ir atvareme namo.
visa vakara masciau apie laika, praleista baltarusijoje. apie ju unity, ju politiska scena. apie ju atviruma, atsisveikinimo asaras. apie tai, kad jie is vienos puses smaugiami lukasenko, naciu ir valstybines sistemos, is kitos kapitalizmo, naciu ir makdonaldsu sugeba pasipriesinti, sugeba veikti, kurti, buti drauge. tokie dalykai ant tiek ikvepia kazka daryt, veikt, gyvent, kad noris istrinti is hardo viska, kas yra niuriau uz old school hardcora. kad noris skaityti apie RAF. kad noris atvaziuot tenai dar kuo greiciau, kad noris laikyt juos uz ranku, rekti ir verkti kartu.
xdirtx::L.i.L.o. kolektyvas
daugiau apie baltarusijos scenos aktyvuma: www.375crew.org
[kol kas tik rusiskai, bet neuzilgo bus ir angliskai]

artimiausi ivykiai baltarusijoje:

19 July:
Plague Mass [aus] + Hero Dishonest [fin] Minsk

15-21 July:

girls from
-"Rebellious girls",
-women crisis centre,
-and organisation "Jana".
invite you to take part in the women summer camp!!

Data: about 15-21 July

Place for camp: Belarus open air

Objects of camp: for us important meet with activists from other
countries for experience exchange and possibility of common
projects\contacts. And we never had camp with women\feministic\gender
tematics.
Also energization belarusian women activists.

Number of participants about 70.
Living in tent camp, food from camp-fire, natural lavatory.

Now we have financional limit. But we promise food in camp and travel from
Minsk to camp, but we cann't promise reimbursement of travel cost :(( But
we try to find it, you can try too!!!

Structure of the camp:
In the evening - cultural program
Cinema/video
Disco
Concert
Theatre
Fire-show
Body-art
football!!

In the morning\day - some seminars, discussions, workshops
Workshops
Home video/ processes of cinema doing
Self-defense for women
Foto art
Embroidery\knitting
Diy stuffs
djing

Seminars, discussions
Situation in Belarus
Women initiatives in Belarus
Woman statement and women initiatives in different countries
Sex minorities, rights, stereotypes, and statement in Belarus
Women and migration
Traffic
Possibility of common projects
Violence
Feminism
Gender
Reasons for gender inequality
Family. The institute of motherhood and fatherhood. Family roles.
Woman literature
Woman cinema
Alternative pedagogic
Masculinity

Results:
- you have possibility to have new contacts
- rest from men
- relations with super girls!! from Germany, Belarus, Russia,
Latvia and Poland
we are waiting for:
1. Women's collective of satirical feminist journal 'Wargazm' (Belarus;
Minsk) 2. Crisis Centre (Belarus; Minsk)
3. Gender Centre (Russia; St. Petersburg)
4. Internet Radio Project RIXC (Latvia; Riga)
6. Women Lesbian Film Collective (Germany; Berlin)
7. Street Theatre and Acrobatic Group (Germany; Berlin)
8. Pirate Radio
to be continued... (which groups did I forget?)

We have maillist about camp, if it is interesting to take part for you,
subscribe too! and we must know as soon as possible will you in camp or
no,
becouse we must do some organizational stuff. We hope to see you in camp!
we interested in contacts with girls from Poland. You can write on Polish.

Love and anarchy

contact - mailto:nekozak@mail.ru

here i end and you begin [2004.06]

mano passwordas

man kelia nuotaika, o as tokiom naktim tyliai einu is proto.

p.s. inetas:
svarbus/idomus dalykai - kitam kartui.
mailas/blogas - tingiu.
porno - taip + kaltes jausmas.

pain[t] archive

rolling stones are better [2003.07]

if i'm trying [2003.08]

aplink sirdi [2003.08]

i never thought it will die, i thought that i just will [2003.08]

penktadionie vakarui! [2003.09]

pyktis [2003.09]

a.. [2003.10]

liudna yra zhinoti, kad blogai, bet dar blogiau yra to nezhinoti [2003.10]

kvadrats [2003.11]

svarbu yra viska atsiminti [2003.11]

untitled [2003.12]

truksta kazhko ashtraus [2004.01]

ka jis daro [2004.02]

a, bliat [2004.03]

welcome to suaugusiu pasauli! [2004.03]

we are all alone [2004.03]

when we got nothing left to loose [2004.04]

effective way [2004.05]

mind the sky [2004.05]

nera vartu [2004.05]

vartok [2004.05]

pasipriesinimo technologijos - meile [2004.06]

nation states were a bad idea [2004.06]

making football a threat again

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stai FC V.O.V.A. [vno] busimieji marskineliai.
nemoku det i foruma, tai cia idejau.

nu ir esant proga, pasiskusiu - wormas NetSky per savaite uzkrete/pridare man ant kompo 43627 failus. vijau ji dvi paras su NOD32, Avast! ir Kaspersky!

tik isvijau, pradejo kazkas ikyriai brautis pas mane pro 135 porta (kas tai?), kas 5 min. vis bando, tai visus firewallo (Outpost 2.1) settingus ant makso pasistaciau + visus imanomus plu-inus suinstaliavau/paleidau. jau valanda ramu. taciau kad isiloginciau i foruma ar i maila ieiciau tenka isjungt firewalla, po to vel ijungt, etc. nors nustaciau hardcore.lt ir kitus geruosius saitus i geruju isrinktuju sarasa, vis tiek neleidzia laisvai ieit.
tas interenetas...
bet greit neturesiu (2 savaites), tai bent nereikia cracku programom ieskot - laikas kaip tik baigsis tada.

done

atsikelti 6.00 - done (5.48 - priezastis - is siknos eina kraujas)
pasedeti karstoj vonioj/sutvarkyti sikna - done
susitvarkyti buta - done (dar liko vienas kambarys, bet ten miega zmones, tai veliau)
issinesti siukles - done (viska sudejau prie duru - 9 maisai, dvi dezes, trys siuksledezes)
pasveikinti Migeli su gimtadieniu ir atsiprasyti, kad neatejau - done
paskolinti mobilu - done (bent sms'us raso)
isskalbti futbolo forma - done
nuplauti + sutepti bepatenu sikna - done
nueiti i parduotuve - done
pagaminti valgi - done
prizadinti Vlada - done
pasakyt Vladui, kad man bega kraujas is siknos ir tikriausiai greit mirsiu del to - done
pakeisti du kart nuotaika - done (nuo ryto iki 8iu - miegustai apatiska, po 8iu nervinga, sudirginta siknos skausmo, po 10ies - niurus leti 'post-sikniniai' pamastymai)
pabandyti pakeisti nuotaika trecia karta galvojimu apie siandienos futbola + filmus - error
pabandyti pakeisti nuotaika trecia karta galvojimu apie siandienos futbolo isaugimo i kazka @ktyvesni perspektyvas - in process
pasiziureti forume apie futbola - done
pasiziureti bloga - done
apsidziaugti ir opecialitsia, kad atsirado nauju bloggeriu - done
parasyti bloga - done
nueiti pamiegot iki 1os - in process
paimti GC vidiaka - upcoming
paimti TV is Dareliu - upcoming
pakeisti nuotaika besiklausant Against Me! seno albumo - upcoming
apsispresti kur stoti ir uzpildyti stojimo forma - upcoming
velai vakare nueiti patikrinti namo skvotui - upcoming [hopefully]
a-t-s-a-k-y-t-i m-a-i-l-u-s ! - upcoming
s-u-s-i-r-a-s-t-i "t-o-do-" l-a-p-e-l-i ! - upcoming + necessary

p.s. cia siaip - kodel angliskai kazka sakyt kai kuriom svarbiom temom geriau gaunas?

gal kas turi

sleifa hardams paskolinti ilgam/duoti/nebrangiai parduoti?

nu tas sudas, and kurio hardai jungiami. nes mano susipiso.

error occuried

kai bandziau parasyt i komentarus, kad Olka buvo blr., kur ir as buvau su Bora neseniai. sia proga tai jau ir surasysiu viska, ka norejau.

PAKSIUS
prie kelias savaites, eidamas namo is Minimos, esancios priesais liberalu bustyne, pamaciau zmogu. pilkais drabuziais, pilka aplinka, pilka nuotaika. jis stovejo prie uzblokuoto prabangios masinos rato. visas susiraukes, itraukes galva. su juo buvo dar vienas stambus vaikinas, kuris nuejo ieskoti, kas uzblokavo rata. pilkas zmogus atsisuko ir supratau, kad tai Paksas. jis liudnom akim paziurejo i mane ir linktelejes galva, tyliai pasake 'labas'. as nieko nepasakiau. bet man pasidare jo labai gaila. toksai vienisas, pilkas, netekes valdzios, ismestas kaip koks suo, su uzblokuotu ratu, prarades privilegijas, paliktas apsaugininko vidury gatves.
eidamas namo dvejojau kas butu geriau: mesti jam i veida torta ar pakviesti arbatos, kol ieskoma budu atblokuot rata, pasikalbet 'apie gyvenima', kol jis dar truputi primina zmogu, o ne politika.

NAMAI
greit neturesiu namu. Aiva sako reikia prasilaiky per vasara. as abejuoju, kad noriu prasilaikyt su bet kuo, kad tik prasilaikyt. tikrai issikraustysiu. nes net jeigu prasilaikytume, tai nemanau, kad likciau ten, nes vis tiek man buvo visa laik kazkas ne taip, gyvenant tuose namuose. gal cia as durnas, bet taip jau yra.
ieskau namu, rasykit jei ka.

KAUNAS (parases 'anglu kalbos zinojimo lygis' supratau, kad sudejau du koncertus i viena, bet kadangi neatsimenu kas kuriam tiksliai grojo, tai tegu tai buna bendras ispudi apie du koncertus)
pries menesi koki buvau Kaune per koncerta. susitranzavau gana greitai. bet gana ilgai ieskojau Galeros. kol ieskojau, prisiziurejau vietiniu plakatu. tai kazkas ypatinga: ,,ir Kaune galima gyventi", "Negeisk svetimo turto" ir kiti is 10 dievo isakymu, "Kada paskutini karta skaitei knyga?" ir t.t. jie tikrai pakele man nuotaika. susirades Galera, pasisveikinau su keliais pazistamais ir iejau i vidu. praleidau suomiu grupe, girdejau tik keleta dainu. pamirsau pavadinima - tie, kur Karolis labai kiso, o Arvydas sake 'popsa'. tai emo momentai alia 'at the drive-in' patiko, bet pop momentai alia 'rocksuperstars' kniso. nors kaip zmones jie buvo nieko, vienas vaiksciojo su pusiau profesionalia kamera ir viska dokumentavo, atrode labai nustebes, kitas (vokalistas) labai prisigere ir suzinojes, kad as sXe, pradejo aiskint, kad jis labai respect tokius zmones, kad jis turi tokiu draugu, kad pats ateity toksai pataps. juokingas toksai tipelis. po to grojo Kill All New Germs - nezinot kas cia per grupe? taigi, KANG. taip, as irgi juokiausi kai suzinojau, ka reiskia sutrumpinimas. visa koncerta visi ramiai atstovejo, tik per paskutini jau iprasta CRUCIFIED koveri keli zmones pasoko.
neatsimenu ar grojo Samsara, jei grojo, tai nieko naujo nepasakysiu - idomu, bent kazkas ne taip. dar labai gaila, kad Samsara yra Samsara, o ne s.a.m.s.a.r.a., nes labai idomu buvo ka reiske sutrumpinimas, bet pasirode kad cia Arvis biski neteisingai suprato tiesiog. per Inerdzia klausiausi ju prakalbu, nes zmones tikrai turejo ka pasakyt, gaila, kad ne viska supratau. nezinau, ar cia kaltas ju akcentas, ar mano anglu kalbos zinojimo lygis. koncerto pradzioj grojo Toro Bravo irgi smagiai pagrojo, kartu su jais ir publika traukriau priedainius. tik po to kai grojo italai, o Toro Bravo jau isvare, publikos dalis pradejo kelt rankas nacistiskai pasisveikine viens kita, paprasiau nuleisti ranka, gavau i galva nuo vieno, po to nuo kito. po aiskinimaisi, juo isvare is klubo, bet i galva nedave. ai, jau rasiau apie tai i bloga. taigi, Kauno dalis cia baigiasi. tik belieka pasakyt, kad the Divisive ir Hope Dies Last pagrojo ten oxujennai. buvo labai geras ivykis.

KLAIPEDA
pries kelias savaites buvau Klaipedoj per Analena ir Baracka. kadangi buvo daug gandu apie koncerta uzpulsiancius nacius, tai bandziau netgi pasiskolint beisbolo bita, bet nepavyko, tai nieko kito nesugalvojau, uzsidejau savo 'metalistini' metalini dirza. tranzavom kartu su Linu. ta proga ir susipazinom. bent jau normaliai. visai nieko zmogelis. rekomenduoju. mus paeme iki Kauno, ten islipom, sustojo 'gerasis' pacanas, viena vieta, mane kaipo loseri ikiso. greit buvau vietoj. paskambinau Cinikui ir nusigavau iki Zemaitijos kinoteatro, kur buvo susitarta susirinkt, kadangi prie koncerto vietos neva lauke naciai, kad pizdintu po viena. informacijos saltinis buvo toks 'musu mergina paskambino naciu merginai, ir ji pasake kad ju apie 20, nuejo dabar alaus, greit gris ir lauks musu tenai'. kino teatre sumokejau uz popkorna, kad galeciau nueit i tulika. grizes is tulika, isigijau arbatos ir atsisedau uz staliuko. greit pasirode Arvydas su PunkAlmiu, o po to jau ir vietiniai zmogeliai. viso susirinko apie 30 zmoniu. man iteike grandine ir gelezini stripa. bandziau pajuokaut, kad nemoku tuo naudotis, bet visu veidai buvo rimti ir nusiteike kovai. susede i Barackos, Analenos busikus ir dar tris taksi, mes isvaziavome prie koncerto vietos. pakeliui uzsukome pasiskolinti beisbolo bitu. taigi, gavau dar ir beisbolo bita. atvare i vieta, nepamateme jokiu naciu prie vietos, issikroveme busikus ir laukeme visa koncerta, kad kazkas bus. po koncerto ejome po 10 zmoniu, bet nieko nebuvo. arba naciu ir nebuvo, arba jie prisigere, arbe dar kazkas. buvo tik vienas nacis praejes truputi toliau ir ziurejes i mus. galvojom, kad po to turetu sekti puolimas, bet nieko nebuvo. labai puiku.
Koncertas pavyko sauniai, per Baracka visi labai linksminosi, buvo net trys (!) pogo ratai, ir zmones klausesi ir reagavo (!) i muzikantu prakalbas - didziausio palaikymo susilauke dainos pries NATO ir apie 'ja vol, ja vol, ich liebe alkohol'.
taipogi per koncerta suzinojau, kad ciuvakas vaziuojantis su Analena yra Robet Refuse, labai apsidziaugiau ir sauniai su juo pabendravom. bendravimo rezultatas - as isigyjau KAFKA cd ir World Wide SxE Compilation kasetes. juokauju. jas norejau isigyt ir pries tai. Robertas labai gailejosi, kad neatvaziavo xJiHeartx is blr., nes jis zada juos leisti, o pamatyt nepavyko gyvai dar. as irgi labai gailejausi ir pykau ant ES (apie tai veliau). dar prajuokino, kad Robertas pasake, pamates X'us ant mano ranku ir Arvio maikona 'sXe, the force that keeps us alive' "tai jus du susikurkit grupe ir as jus isleisiu". pasakiau, kad esu negabus, todel nieko nebus.
I scena ilipo Analena ir Elena. Analena ir Elena kaip supratau labai myli viena kita. viva la meile! arba geriau join resistance - fall in love!
Analenai pradejus groti trecia gabala, as jau pasiekiau aktyviojo tusinimosi lygio, ir aukstai sokau nuo scenos. kadangi visa kit publika dar nepasieke to lygio, tai niekas manes nepagavo ir as nusileidau ant stuburo paskutiniojo slankstelio. po to as siekiau aktyviojo tusiniosi lygio tik psichishkai, stovedamas kairiajame scenos kampe. aisku, dar bandziau judet koncerto pabaigoj, bet kas buvo nukrites ant tos vietos (pvz., Edvo per paskutini tabunsa), zino, kad nelabai pajudesi su tuo dalyku. koncerto pabaigoj FIX ME koveris buvo oxujennai.
po koncerto mane padejo pas dvi seseris. malonios merginos. kita diena pagaminome valgi ir nuejome zaisti futbolo i miska (!). is pradziu buvau nusiteikes skeptiskai, bet greit perpratau medziu vaidmens zaidime smaguma. so we had a great time, ir beveik pamirsau apie dalykus, kurie mane trikdo, bet kuriu nenoriu pamirsti.
tai buva vienas tokiu ivykiu, po kuriu galvoji, kad viskas daug ar maz imanoma, tiki savimi ir kitais, ir visuo tuo, ir netgi sau and rankos uzsirasiau 'do the anarchy, do the hardcore'. juokinga. bet tikra.
atgal mes vaziavome traukiniu. nevaziavau traukiniu 6 metus. tai buvo nerealu. nesimastubavau traukinio tulike 6 metus. tai buvo irgi nerealu. uzsisakiau arbatos. kapitalistiniai iskrypeliai cia irgi pridejo savo letena - karstas vanduo vienkartiniame plastmasiniame indelyje su atskirai i maiseli ipakuota arbata, sauksteliu, sukrumi, ir Dirol guma. sukniso visa nuotaika. trejau apsispresti ar knisti sau nuotaika bemastant, ar eiti miegot. nugalejo fiziologija. Vilnius pasiekeme per 6 valandas. kaina - 18 litu. studentams. tai daug pigiau, nei autiku. kita kart irgi taip varysiu tikriausiai. atsisveikines su Linu, nuejau namo, prie duru sustojau, ir nuejau kur nors pasivaiksciot, pasedeti. tie namai manes netraukia, vis aiskiau tai suvokiu. placiau skaitykit skiltyje 'NAMAI'.

FUCK ES
norejau parasyti jau apie isvyka i blr., bet is pradziu papasakosiu apie tai, kaip pries tai i lietuva ES neileido baltarusiu grupes xJiHeartx.
- begiojau tris dienas su popieriais tarp Migracijos Tarnybos, Uzsienio Reikalu Konsulu Skyriumi, Baltarusijos Ambasados Lietuvoje ir Hansa Bank
- sukisau begale nervu ir apie 100 litu i pakvietimu, faksu, dokumentu, uklausu padaryma
- skambinau 4 valandas is eiles i du duotus man numerius del kolektyviu vizu. nieks nekele ragelio.
- galiausiai pasitiksline, kas yra Jaunimo Euro Integracijos Centras, URKS perdave ta informacija i Lietuvos atstovybe Baltarusijoje, kuri po to pasake vizu atejusiems baltarusams, kad pasikeite istatymas, ir nuo siol tokios vizos isduodamos tik valstybiniu instituciju atstovams, ir niekaip nekomentavo pries tai gavusio 20 kolektyviu vizu senuko is istorijos draugijos atvejo.
Kai baltarusai paskutini karta man skambino, jie buvo labai susijaudine, buvo nezmoniskai gaila, pikta, kad del siu susiktu politiniu keksiu zaidimu, valstybiu, istatymu, valdzios mes negalime net vienas kito pamatyti.
Artiomas pasake 'na nieko. gal but rugpjuti. linkejimai is lukasenkijos i europos tvirtove'.

BALTARUSIJA, MINSKAS
idesiu veliau. dabar negaliu. idesiu rytoj i komentarus.

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KODEL?

p.s. gal kas nors zinot nama vilniaus centre, dideli, niekam nereikalinga, grazu, is kurio as pasidaryciu skvota, ir tvarkyciau ji per visa vasara, uzsidejes ausinuka ir galvodamas apie vienintele per pastaruosius metus, vakar perskaityta knyga apie RAF.

p.s.2 jei jus geri zmones ir kazka tvarkotes, parasykit man i maila - as galiu jums padet, nes zinau, kad tvarkyti, sudelioti viska i 'savo' vietas as moku/megstu. as nezinau, ar tai jau pedantizmas, bet kartais, kai tingiu kalbet, pasakau, jog taip.

o dar man patinka sugniauzus dantis ir uzsimerkus 'triasti golovoj v raznyje storony, sozdovaja osiusenije unictozenija mozgovyx kletok u sebia v mozgu'. dar mojuot smarkiai suspaudus bealkogolinio alaus 0,33 ml. buteliu.

mus stebi is interneto, jei tavo proxy niekam tikes, tu pats niekam tikes.

a, pamirsau. dar prie to - TM.

blet, viskas antiek, kad jau ant TM galima det TM ir gaut begaline progresija. Jeigu begaline, tai po kurio laiko, kai ji labai padideja, pirkejo ir pekamojo funcijos gali antiek supanaseti, kad neliktu didesnio skirtumo, kas ka perka, liktu tik pasiskirstimo (ir tai, salygino) vaidmenys.

blet, blet, blet.

ji cia irgi dabar rasys.

o vosvos? kas jis yra? maniau vova, siandien bendravau su vova - ne, tai ne vova.

o opit? lyg ir zinau/pazistu, bet pasiskaitau blogus, tai gaunas kad nifiga nepazistu.

imigruociau i baltarusija, bet suvokdamas, kad tai tik apsimestinas darymas, o is tikruju begimas, galiu pasakyt tik blet, blet, blet.

DABAR as rasysiu "svobodnoasociativnojo pismo", kaip filme 'sestasis pojutis'. Aisku tam truputi trukdys Vitoso ijungta kazkokia erzinati elektronika ( elektronika man patinka, bet ne tokia erzinanti, kaip sita), ir ka, tai rasau. ne nerasau, nes ji per daug erzina, o uz nugaros pro peti ziuri mainu programa atvaes 15metis prancuzas, kuris mano, kad mes juokemes is jo ir del to jis is anksto manes nemegsta, jis ziuri pro meti peti ir erzina mane. o as as erzinu ji. o muzika erzina mus abu. kaip puiku. kaip puiku.

ne, to laisvojo asociaotivaus laisko nebus. prancuzas isejo. kol jo nera, galiu pasakyt, kad jis nemoka angliskai, ir vokiskai, jis nesimoko uzsienio kalbos, jis neduoda atsigert is savo sulciu butelio, nes tai 'nehigieniska', jis uzkloja sofa pries eidamas miegot keliom patalines, nes jam slykstu, kad ant tos sofos sedi buto sveciai. jis mane erzina. bet truputi. tik truputi. juk jis is 'ten'. jam 'galima'.

dar man patinka sugniauzus stipriai dantys ir jauciant tai, apie rasiau rusiskai, trankyti stipriai duris. trankt! a! trankt! a!
tik kartais nepastebiu, kad nemuose yra aiva, ji atbega ir saukia 'kas tau?', ir as sakau nieko, siaip cia as..
po to as einu i koridoriu, uzciuopiu kisenej kelis litus, ju visada buna keli, ir tada einu i parduotuve, i Ikiuka, nes jo savininkai yra prancuzijos pensininkai, o tai geriau nei vilniaus Prekybos savininkai, nors ir suprantu, kad tai nieko nekeicia, kad tai tik pavadinimas, fiske. atejes, zinau, kad noriu valgyti, bet nezinau, ko noriu. as ziuriu i 'gaideli', bet jis jau uzpiso. tada i chalva. jau irgi ne. einu sulciu. jei ten nebutu sulciu, tikriausiai namuose greit neliktu sveiku duru. paskutinis atradimas - bananu sultys. + vakaras pas Vitosa, einant iki jo ilgai, pasisedejimai stoteleje.
kodel kiekviena karta kai man skambina mama, visa laik kalbu rusciai/greitai/ironiskai/pyktai? nekenciu saves del to. noreciau kalbet mielai/graziai/tikrai. juk vienintelis dalykas, kuris mane uzknisa tai jos perdetas jaudinimasis ir posakis 'kai turesi savo vaiku, suprasi kas tai'. gal but.
antra dainai visai nieko. lyriska tokia. cia rinkinys, soulseek 4. soulseekas tapo mokamas. gaidziai.
man reikia kazkur istoti, man reikia kazkur gyventi, man reikia, man reikia.
bet juokingiausia, kad suporantu, kad prota man pisa ne tai. prota man pisa kelis metus jau.
zmogus, su kuriuo asmeniskai susirasinejau, sutikes mane pries kelias dienas, nudziugo ir sake taip bent prisibendrausim. bet as pabegau 'arbatos'. po to 'ieskoti raktu'. po to 'sudeti distro'. po to 'paskambinti mamai. po to 'miegoti'. po to 'arbatos'. po to 'sudeti daiktu'. po to 'atsisveikinti'. po to pasakiau jai 'rasyk mailus, iki!'.
gavau is jos 10 'panko filosofijos', rusiskai perduoti Cinikui. 5 palikau sau. dvi pardaviau. dar 3 yra. [savi]kaina 1 euras. norit?
o kita verke, kai isvaziavome. mes susipazinom pries kelias valandas ir jinai verke. ji ziurejo i mus visus ir verke. o vaikinai sypsojosi. su ta sypsena, kokia buna, kai klausais liudnu Against me! dainu.
as persikraunu, kazkas vyksta ne taip. as persikraunu, nieko neveikdamas. kabedmas kaip sudo gabalas, as dar kisu kazkur savo pirsta.
Pastebejau ant desctopo, kad Vitosas irgi piesia painte kartais. as irgi. dar nemoku padet to i bloga. gal ateity ismoksiu, tai idesiu.