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april 29, 2006

notta bene. apsilankymas GAM

vat pasedejom mes čia vakare su personomis, užsišnekėjom apie socialinius dalykėlius ir ne tik, ir kilo mintis pirmadieni , arba kita dieną kada daugumai bus patogi, nueiti į Genocido Aukų Muziejų. jeigu ką domina, pasireikškite komentaruose ir bus galima toliau vystyti šią mintelę.)

april 26, 2006

pointless story

The illumination from under the surface of the water seems to break to many rays of light, like spears slashing through the sapphire blue sky. But she didn't see it. Now inside she felt like struggling to survive a storm, that had only one purpose - drown her inside. Sometimes it seemed that this life was just a one big lie. Noone around seems to tell the truth. Was there even a reason to try? Try and reach something YOU want? People would call you crazy, but with what purpose? Jelousy? That you have a goal to hit, you have a point in life and desperately try to reach it. But really at moments such as this one, you really want to quit on everything, just build a wall around yourself that noone could get to you and noone could hurt you. But that's the easy way out. Anyhow all she could think about was him. She couldn't focus on doing anything at all, God, even sitting quietly in the corner of a run down cafe and drinking beer reminded her of him. But no matter how many times she tried to find him again, pointless, useless. The only thing that rang inside her was his tender voice, saying 'it's ok...i'm here, i won't let you go'. She wanted that sunlight she had in her once back. It didn't matter now, even if he would hate her, but still be there, it wouldn't matter, just as long as she could see him and know that he's alright. Drowning in her thoughts she sat there on the tip of a cliff, staring at the ocean, it's raging waves smashing at the motionless rocks. The sunset was beautiful, it colored the sky from light blue to a fiery red, but it had some kind of tenderness in it. She could die for this view, it soothed her inside, made her feel not that lonely anymore. Just on this thought someone gently placed hands around her shoulders and pressed near her. Slowly closing her eyes she felt his scent in the air, his warm breath tickling her neck. She turned around to see if her mind was playing tricks on her again, and this time it didn't. It really was him. All this time she was looking for him, hoping to find him, someplace but to no avail, and now he was standing there in front of her, plain and real. She couldn't even describe how happy she was to see his smile again. Tears streamed down her cheeks and there was nothing she could do about it. She pressed herself to him, locked her arms around his neck swearing in her mind never to let him go again, but instead of all the words she wanted to say and all the questions she wanted to ask, she asked only one: "did i ever tell you how much i love you?"

april 23, 2006

debugging

'nu tai ką, busi pirmoji kregždute pas mus šį pavasarį' pasake daktariūkštis ir užsiundė seselę, kad mane debuggintų.
o viskas prasidėjo nuo kuklios iškylos į sodybą.) čia vadinasi vakare pasitusini, pritruksta maisto atsargų ir iš ryto trauki ~ 4-5 km per miškus, krūmynus ir pelkes iki artimiausio bažnytkaimio atsigaut.) super. nu tai pasisveikinsiu bo kaip pasakė daktarėlis, bent jau VGPU šį pavasarį pabuvojau pirma pasigavusi mielą augintinį - erkutę.

ryt tik reiks nepanikuojant vežt ištirt...