Audro

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Jūs man geriausi.

Dirbu, ir nebežinau ar sau ar tau. Na, nors šou biznis ir teatras. Ir visi vartoja. Vakar skelbiau nieko nepirkimo dieną. Bet kava nugalėjo. Taip pat nugalėjo ir lauris su pasiūlymų susimest ir susigražint internetą. Blet. Nuolat pats save atakuoji. Be atodūsio.

Emo šmemo. Noriu skrist su lėktuvu. Tikiuosi rudenį tai padaryt, bet gausis kaip visad. Black uhuru.

1985 metų tžž dar nėra žodžio vartotojas, vadybininkas. Bet yra mazdakizmas.

Alaus skonio arbata. IŠ KO?!?!?! IŠ KO BLET?

Sometimes I try to do things and it just doesn't work out the way I wanted to.
I get real frustrated and I try hard to do it and I take my time and it doesn't work out the way I wanted to.
It's like I concentrate real hard and it doesn't work out
Everything I do and everything I try never turns out
It's like I need time to figure these things out
But there's always someone there going

Hey Mike:
You know we've been noticing you've been having a lot of problems lately.
You know, maybe you should get away and maybe you should talk about it, maybe you'll feel a lot better

And I go:
No it's okay, you know I'll figure it out, just leave me alone I'll figure it out. You know I'll just work by myself.

And they go:
Well you know if you want to talk about it I'll be here you know and you'll probably feel a lot better if you talk about it.

And I go:
No I don't want to I'm okay, I'll figure it out myself and they just keep bugging me and they just keep bugging me and it builds up inside and it builds up inside.

So you're gonna be institutionalized
You'll come out brainwashed with bloodshot eyes
You won't have any say
They'll brainwash you until you see their way.

[Chorus:]
I'm not crazy - in an institution
You're the one who's crazy - in an institution
You're driving me crazy - in an institution

They stuck me in an institution
Said it was the only solution
To give me the needed professional help
To protect me from the enemy, myself

I was in my room and I was just like staring at the wall thinking about everything
But then again I was thinking about nothing
And then my mom came in and I didn't even know she was there she called my name
And I didn't even hear it, and then she started screaming: MIKE! MIKE!
And I go:
What, what's the matter
And she goes:
What's the matter with you?
I go:
There's nothing-wrong mom.
And she goes:
Don't tell me that, you're on drugs!
And I go:
No mom I'm not on drugs I'm okay, I was just thinking you know, why don't you get me a Pepsi.
And she goes:
NO you're on drugs!
I go:
Mom I'm okay, I'm just thinking.
She goes:
No you're not thinking, you're on drugs! Normal people don't act that way!
I go:
Mom just give me a Pepsi please
All I want is a Pepsi, and she wouldn't give it to me
All I wanted was a Pepsi, just one Pepsi, and she wouldn't give it to me.
Just a Pepsi.

They give you a white shirt with long sleeves
Tied around you're back, you're treated like thieves
Drug you up because they're lazy
It's too much work to help a crazy

[Chorus]

They stuck me in an institution
Said it was the only solution
To give me the needed professional help
To protect me from the enemy, myself

I was sitting in my room and my mom and my dad came in and they pulled up a chair and they sat down, they go:
Mike, we need to talk to you
And I go:
Okay what's the matter
They go:
Me and your mom have been noticing lately that you've been having a lot of problems,
You've been going off for no reason and we're afraid you're gonna hurt somebody,
We're afraid you're gonna hurt yourself.
So we decided that it would be in your interest if we put you somewhere
Where you could get the help that you need.
And I go:
Wait, what do you mean, what are you talking about, we decided!?
My best interest?! How can you know what's my best interest is?
How can you say what my best interest is? What are you trying to say, I'm crazy?
When I went to your schools, I went to your churches,
I went to your institutional learning facilities?! So how can you say I'm crazy.

They say they're gonna fix my brain
Alleviate my suffering and my pain
But by the time they fix my head
Mentally I'll be dead

[Chorus]

They stuck me in an institution
Said it was the only solution
To give me the needed professional help
To protect me from the enemy, myself

It doesn't matter I�ll probably get hit by a car anyway

Bet tai jau panašėja į psichinę ligą. Ačiū Linui, kuris vakar aplankė vakare su žaliom. Vakarykštė žalių sesija buvo įdomi. Netikėta bet gera. ~ 1.1L. Dar riaugėju jom. Kažkaip viskas lyg ir ok, tik kartais suspaudžia galvą (naudoju tam tikrus atpalaiduojančius augalus) ir kosčiu chroniškai. Pizdė.

Nepaleidžia, nepaleidžia.

Nuo šiandien ryju chemiją. Dvi savaitės buitiniais gydimosi būdais nepadėjo. Žalios devynerios žalios bet ne devynerios nepadėjo. Viena kapsulė dviejų spalvų, kita balta, kita maža balta, kita didelė ruda. Ir normaliai velka.

Vakar buvau Druskininkuose. Apturėjom gerą tripą su gerais nuotykiais. Jei kas nors važiuosite kur nors su automobiliu, tai galiu būt šturmanu arba pakeleiviu. Čia kad ir iki vievio ar kėdainių ar bet kur. Mažos kelionės irgi turi savo šarmo. Nuotykių prasme. O kelionės maršrutai kažkaip stoja.

Šiandien sužinojau apie fraktalus šį bei tą paviršutiniškai, tai paišiau su kompu. Learn It Yourself, debilas. O vakar bevarant pro seimą studentus matėm. Kažkaip buvau pamiršęs. Užmačiau vėliavėlių "Nemokėsiu". Tai nesimokink ir nemokėsi. Ne, bet čia kita prasme, tipo žinių įgijimo. Drumroll.

Sveikinu tuos, kuriem šiandien gimė mergaitės!

pozityvus, be heito, tik nelabai kas supranta matyt, skamba kaip tagai.

Vikipedija, regis yra viskas ko reik gyvenime. Gali užsidaryt ir skaityt visą gyvenimą.
Pradėjau nuo Skatalites istorijos, dabar esu ties Rakim.

Kurupt references Rakim on Snoop Dogg's debut album, Doggystyle. On "For All My Niggaz and Bitches," Kurupt says, "Who's jokin'? Rakim never joked, so why should I loc? now that's my idol...."

Prajuokino. Bet tik daugiau parkių, dabar atidaryta gal trisdešimt tabų su juoda W baltam fone.

(Persipjoviau pirštą repeticijoj beklijuodamas lazdelę su teipu. How cool is that?)

Vakar valgėm:
Orkaitėje keptos bulvės, supjaustytos skiltelėm,
Morkų pyragas,
Karšti sumuštiniai keti orkaitėje,
Orkaitėje keptos bulvės, supjaustytos skiltelėm,
Obuolių pyragas.

Naktį sapnavau orkaitę. Vakar visą dieną sedėjom virtuvėj, su išėjimais parūkyti ant laiptų, ar greitas "nemenas tikėtinoj laiptinėj". Dar dviračiu prasilėkiau iki katedros. Ten klausiau sekmadienio seksi jazzi saksofon. Gerai pavarė. Paskui susitikau šeimynėlę su kolegom, ir pasikviečiau į kiemą. O šiaip namie.

Ryt, regis pradedu vėl dirbt.